Ever since I got on this bus,
ever since I got on that plane
ever since I began saying my name
to people that care
and the ones who don’t
I have been trying to 
always squeeze myself out
into saying exactly 
what I think I mean.

it’s only when
I playback what I’ve said
I become the worst judge I could ever know
and I see all my flaws
all my wrongs said
and double down on who I am,
or what I meant.