I’m breaking patterns 
The five of cups
I know how I’m perceived
I think it’s interesting.
emotional feeling
for me is healing
but not when you think 
I’m only sad.
I could pretend I have strength
in my times of tangled threads
to you that’s being real
for me it’s false pre-empt.

I know it’s not attractive
unexceptional looks and
standing to be devoured.
but I am the queen of swords
good enough to be so well adored.
good enough to accomplish all she wants
despite the downlooking
that’s soared.